And the soreness begins! But that's okay because that's how I know those little follies are growing in there:) For exercise I told myself I would continue to walk until the day of my egg retrieval, but it seems to be getting a little more challenging with abdomenal cramps and pain. I went from 2-4 miles a day down to just 1, but oh well! There's nothing I can do about it and I'm not going to push it. Shots are going well other than a few mistaken finger pokes after the shot is all over. I have been having a lot of headaches from the hormonal shifts, but nothing Tylenol can't help. I have to say, I'm a little scared at how sane I actually feel. This might be due to the removal of most of my stress, thank God. I seem to finally be relaxing out of my type A personality. Maybe that's because I've just about crossed everything off my to-do list! The last big thing is our cookout Saturday which I am so looking forward to, but having people over always stresses me out just making sure the house is clean. So hopefully I will keep myself in check that day and not worry too much since the house is already clean!
Things don't seem to be going too bad, just a lot of baby news lately that always gets me down. My former boss just had a baby Tuesday night, a few friends found out the sex of their babies and the occasional passing by of a pregnant lady when I'm out and about or watching TV tends to bring out the tears these days. Then there's a lot of women in the infertility groups that I belong to finding out they are pregnant. I am so ecstatic for them, I really am, but I just hope and pray each time that it will be me in a few weeks with the same news. Always during the process do your hopes and eagerness for this to happen seem so much more intense. It's beginning to be just about the only thing I think about throughout the day other than when I'm actually involved in conversation, watching TV or reading a book. Even then my thoughts start to wander. I try so hard not to be rude, but sometimes I just can't help it. So if I talk to any of you in the next three weeks and you see my mind start to drift off, please don't take it personally!
My doctor's appointment is tomorrow! We are so excited and anxious to see how the follicles are progressing it's ridiculous! I am truly hoping they tell me to come back Tuesday and that's the last day of shots so my egg retrieval would be on Thursday. That would be ideal! But only time will tell. To make sure i see my doctor, they are sending us to the Canton office tomorrow and we are very pleased with that. We don't mind travelling to make sure I see him instead of my previous doc.
That's all the news I have for today! Stay tuned to see how the doctor's appointment went tomorrow!
Your exercise is probably helping you quite a bit, as is your prayer life. Hang in there. I'll say a couple of prayers for you. You might want to have a prayer to say especially when you see the pregos or hear about other things that trigger your sadness, just so you have it handy. You might want to consider offering your the way you feel in union with the sacrifice of Jesus on the cross for the intentions of your current and future family. I am Catholic so this is probably a little "different" sounding for you. Basically it takes the grief you are feeling with this trial of IF and self-sacrifice, and courage it takes and gives it meaning. If you already have good way of dealing with this, maybe your own prayer, then you can disregard this if you like.
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